In my young adolescent years I never thought about crushes. I only admire my teachers who were very dedicated to the field they chose. I am just wondering what and where would I be 10 years from then. I did not entertain anyone who happened to like me. Some of them are nice, some are really weird, and some are campus crushes but they're more than rude and it's a fact. Until now I wonder how I've turned my heart to loving someone, when from elementary to high school I've been digging myself down to be left unnoticed by these jerks I come across the school.
I looked so assuming pushing guys away from me. In the first place, they never ask me or even speak to me. But I know they like me. It's not assuming per se. It's more like an instinct. And my friends' gossip of course. Girls do have a short meeting inside the washroom during break time and that's what I hated most, them, talking about their crushes while I'm sitting and waiting for them to come out. Those 'giggling moments' are still stuck on my memory and it keeps haunting me. But I can't deny the fact that most of the time those memories keep me smiling.
It was nearly high school graduation when I realised that I am also a girl. This guy made me feel very different. He's not like the other guys who would run after me during break time or keep on calling my house number and send messages on my hand phone until the break of dawn (who seemingly doesn't sleep at all). He's a very mysterious person. I admit he's a snob. And I liked him being a snob. It's challenging. And exciting. ;) Being in a relationship with someone older is a great experience. He knows how to handle certain situations where my blood starts clotting through my veins and words are just not coming out of my mouth. But the sad part is that he perfectly knows how to play with my heart. I loved. Really loved. But I also got hurt. Really hurt. The next relationships are pretty the same, the only difference is that I'm braver now. I fight fearlessly and love endlessly.
There's a saying, 'A brave man may not live forever but the cautious may not exist at all.'
So don't let fear bring you down, instead, face your fears and be an inspiration to others.
I looked so assuming pushing guys away from me. In the first place, they never ask me or even speak to me. But I know they like me. It's not assuming per se. It's more like an instinct. And my friends' gossip of course. Girls do have a short meeting inside the washroom during break time and that's what I hated most, them, talking about their crushes while I'm sitting and waiting for them to come out. Those 'giggling moments' are still stuck on my memory and it keeps haunting me. But I can't deny the fact that most of the time those memories keep me smiling.
It was nearly high school graduation when I realised that I am also a girl. This guy made me feel very different. He's not like the other guys who would run after me during break time or keep on calling my house number and send messages on my hand phone until the break of dawn (who seemingly doesn't sleep at all). He's a very mysterious person. I admit he's a snob. And I liked him being a snob. It's challenging. And exciting. ;) Being in a relationship with someone older is a great experience. He knows how to handle certain situations where my blood starts clotting through my veins and words are just not coming out of my mouth. But the sad part is that he perfectly knows how to play with my heart. I loved. Really loved. But I also got hurt. Really hurt. The next relationships are pretty the same, the only difference is that I'm braver now. I fight fearlessly and love endlessly.
There's a saying, 'A brave man may not live forever but the cautious may not exist at all.'
So don't let fear bring you down, instead, face your fears and be an inspiration to others.
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